“Then He said to Thomas, “Put your finger here and observe My hands. Reach out your hand and put it into My side. Don’t be an unbeliever, but a believer.” Thomas responded to Him, “My Lord and my God!” (John 20:27-28, HCSB)
Thomas was not one of the first disciples to see Jesus after He’d risen. He did not see the linen cloths left folded in the tomb. He was not in the room when Jesus first appeared to the other disciples. The Bible says the disciples kept telling Thomas that they had seen Jesus, and Thomas responded, “If I don’t see the mark of the nails in His hands, put my finger into the mark of the nails, and put my hand into His side, I will never believe!” Eight days later, Jesus appeared to the disciples again, and this time, Thomas was also present. Jesus said, specifically to Thomas, “put your finger here and observe My hands. Reach out your hand and put it into My side.” Jesus invited Thomas to do exactly what Thomas told the disciples he needed to do in order to believe. Thomas responded, “My Lord and my God!” It’s like Thomas was saying, “Oh my gosh, it’s true! I’m so sorry I doubted. You truly are a King! You are God!” Jesus wanted Thomas to believe. He wanted Thomas to believe even if He hadn’t appeared. He wanted Thomas to know Him. He wanted Thomas to trust Him. He wanted Thomas. I think of the times I have gone to God with doubts. I seem to come away with a greater knowledge of His love. My doubts do not drive Him away. He has pursued me from the beginning, and it’s almost like He says, “I’m not stopping now.” I’ve done nothing to deserve that kind of love, but He doesn’t require that we deserve it…only that we receive it.