The Need To Be Loved

switzerland-4290226__480What is our deepest longing, as people?  I would suggest that it is to be loved.  I have listened to numerous testimonies by people who at one time lived lives that made it appear as though they gave absolutely no thought to the need to be loved, when in reality, they were yearning for it on the inside.  They wanted someone to love them enough to show them a better way of living…someone who had their best interests at heart.  Someone who would be a compassionate listener when they needed to vent their deepest frustrations, allowing them to be as honest and flawed as they truly are, and yet still offer love and acceptance.  Someone who would allow them to put the weight of their discouragement, fear, anxiety, abandoned hopes, feelings of worthlessness, and all of their other struggles onto them and give them the wisdom to navigate through them.  Someone to hold them when they were feeling…done…tired…burnt out…shame…at the end of their rope…and who would whisper, “I love you,”…”I…loveyou.”  We all long for this, and this is the kind of relationship God offers us through His Son, Jesus.

“What is the price of five sparrows?  A couple of pennies?  Yet God does not forget a single one of them.  And the very hairs on your head are all numbered.  So don’t be afraid; you are more valuable to him than a whole flock of sparrows.” – Luke 12:6-7

A Healing Of Heart

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A Healing Of Heart

In stillness, I hear my heart beating
See more clearly the wind through the trees
Watch pine needles fall, mountains stand tall,
and heavy thoughts move in to seize

It’s deliberate, this moving about
This putting things out of my mind
It’s easier that way, a chance to delay
the pain that does echo and find

I wish I could tell it, “Be gone!”
And far away it would go
Like a leaf on the stream
floats away in sunbeam,
or like footprints that fade in the snow

Struggles they come, but they’ll go
Once and for all they’ll depart
And I’ll find my strength,
be renewed by each length
and all with a healing of heart

-kb

“But those who trust in the Lord will find new strength.  They will soar high on wings like eagles.  They will run and not grow weary.  They will walk and not faint.” – Isaiah 40:31

Will You Find Me Here?

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Will You Find Me Here?

It’s hard to put it into words
the inadequacy I feel
I’ve accomplished so little
with so much time
and being here makes it more real
If there is something I’m good at
it’s saying “no,” or not finishing things
It’s losing interest, assuming defeat
or sitting on my wings
It’s fear that consumes me now
it’s fear that consumed me then
And self-pity makes it easier somehow
I can call feeling sorry, my friend
But I’m not ready to be the problem
or accept blame for falling short
For not impressing family or friend
or for staying in my port
I’ve heard some say that accepting yourself
and what has come of yet
is the secret to living life peacefully
instead of with regret
Did I ever want?
What did I desire?
To step onto another’s path
and make their flame my fire?
To hop onto another’s back
while they walked through the mire?
I don’t deserve the things I have
the blessings He is giving
The comforts or the kind of love
that make a life, good living
But I would never argue this
the gratitude I owe
To the God Who brought me here
and helps me as I grow
And when I pray for just one thing
to feel I can be proud of
Something followed through to end
and had no single doubt of
I hope it counts as brand new seed
that sprouts within my heart
In soil that is watered well
from which efforts don’t part
Though maybe you will find me here
once again, in gloom
Where tears they fall from cheek to chin
as I watch others bloom

“The Lord will fulfill his purpose for me; your steadfast love, O Lord, endures forever.” – Psalm 138:8

When Crawl Became Climb

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When Crawl Became Climb

I thought it just me
weeping aloud
filling the room
with water and cloud

‘Til His voice, I felt
echoing mine
gave strength to my soul
and crawl became climb

-kb

 

“…but they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings
like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.” – Isaiah 40:31

Better Land

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Better Land

I see Him in the rays of sun
that cast a warm, pink glow
I find Him in the crispy cold
that chills my face and toes

I see Him in the melty blues
in lakes below the trees
Where mountains shoot from land to sky
and gift us snowy peaks

He formed the creatures, and the moon
He put the stars in place
He grows the seedling from the earth
moves wind across my face

He’s here, and knows your every thought
the things you’ve always kept
safe, away from diggers deep
where, with folded wings you wept

To restless hearts, He gives new hope
and reaches out a Hand
As we leave our burdens there
and move to better land

– kb

“In his hand are the depths of the earth, and the mountain peaks belong to him.” – Psalm 95:4

 

The Same Grace

outdoor-2206196__480We can feel free to bring our troubles, anger, frustration, and sadness to God, and we can be assured that He will listen to our every thought and word.  His heart is moved by the things that carve valleys of pain through our souls.  He is there when we weep.  He is there when we ask why.  His understanding and mercy toward us are considerable, and what makes Him great is that they are also considerable toward those we call our enemies.  Can we be okay with that?  Maybe we can.  Maybe we can let it bring us a sense of comfort, knowing that God offers the same grace to all.

“Therefore the Lord longs to be gracious to you, And therefore He waits on high to have compassion on you.  For the Lord is a God of justice; How blessed are all those who long for Him.” – Isaiah 30:18

Hearts In Pieces

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Hearts In Pieces

Was just me and a book
in my small kitchen nook
when the sun cast a ray
over me as I shook

Light turned to dark
hearts were in mourning
and suddenly thoughts
of loss without warning

Stories emerged of special lives
teachers and nurses, and husbands and wives
of heroic deeds, and self-sacrifice
of those who passed and of those who survived

To the mothers and brothers and sisters and daughters
the spouses, grandparents, grandchildren, sons, fathers
the nephews, the friends, the cousins, the nieces
to all those affected, whose hearts are in pieces

When the sun comes up, we wake with you
we mourn your loss and ache with you
pray comfort, you can take with you
know the stories of courage grew our hearts too

-kb


“The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit.” – Psalm 34:18

Every Single Tear

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EVERY SINGLE TEAR
She says God wasn’t there during the difficult times,
and I didn’t live hers, so it throws me
I look beyond, around, behind
to lock hearts with the One who grows me
I know other souls in tragic times
saw Jesus standing there
When in dark places, where no light shined,
they felt Him ever near
It was the sparkle on the water,
the eyes where scales fell
the near death and, “I saw Him!”
a lit up prison cell
So why did she not see You
It troubles me to hear
I know that with her, You were
cupped every single tear
– kb
                             
“The Lord is close to the brokenhearted; he rescues those whose spirits are crushed.” – Psalm 34:18

When Peter Got Out of the Boat

church-1881234__480When Jesus approached the disciples in the boat, and was walking on water, Peter asked Him if he could join Him.  Jesus answered affirmatively, and Peter jumped out the side of the boat.  Things started out okay, but as Peter continued to walk his fear got the best of him, and he began to sink.  Peter shouted to the Lord to save him, and Jesus “immediately reached out and grabbed him.”  (Matthew 14:31)  This made me think more about how being in a relationship with God does not exclude us from moments of sinking.  But when that happens, we can follow Peter’s example and cry out to God.  After the sinking incident, Jesus asked Peter why he had doubted Him.  This would indicate that Jesus considered Peter’s fear, while in Jesus’ presence, to be doubt.  I think that is key, that because Jesus was present, Peter did not need to worry.  I know that Jesus is present in my own life because I have asked Him to be, and the next time I am fearful I will think of Jesus’ words to Peter.

Lord, I pray that You will help me to remember that You are present with me the next time I become fearful.  I pray that You will give me the strength, through Your Spirit, to trust in You and Your care for me.  Amen.

New

mural-1331783__480Sometimes, when I have felt anger, I have believed it was creating a divide between God and me.  But, when I think about it, if every time I experience negative emotions, God turns away, it doesn’t give us a chance to build a real relationship.  How many people in your life do you consider true friends with whom you only share the more pleasant aspects of your personality; only your best and cheeriest self?  The people I consider my closest friends have seen me at my worst, and loved me anyway.  I think the key to dealing with anger and other unpleasant emotions is to take them to God and to be completely honest with Him about what we’re feeling.  It means talking to Him about even the things we feel almost too ashamed to say out loud.  It means spilling our guts so that He can begin to fill us with something new.

“For he loves us with unfailing love; the Lord’s faithfulness endures forever.  Praise the Lord!” – Psalm 117:2